I'm going to completely honest now-
I haven't made an entry on this thing in nine months and hell of a load has happened and changed since. I've learnt so much in that time. And I don't care if it's not poetic or anything, I'm just going to update because this needs to be written down.
Jon
Is amazing.
I'm looking back to the people I've previously written about, the people I've been with. And the amount of times I hoped that it would be long lasting and awesome. And I'm telling you now, the moment I had stopped looking, everything just fell into place. Now eleven months on, I'm so in love, I can't even describe it. I don't know how many of you get this feeling when you start writing about someone you feel so strongly about- when it kinda feels like you've hit a road block because you can't go on. It's not because I don't know what to say, it's almost as if I don't want to say it and share it with you. He's like this treasure I've found (and he literally was one person out of 2500 people in Earls Court lol) I don't feel the need to gush on about how great he is, because I already know. If that makes sense.
God
Has come into my life and made it better.
I am not going to Bible bash or force my beliefs down your throat. All I will say, is that I was raised without a dad for most of my life. And when I thought I had a dad, he let me down. Knowing God is the best thing I've done, and no matter who or what you are, there is someone who listens when you pray who will welcome you in with open arms because He loves us all.
The future
Is such an exciting thought.
I mean, apart from upcoming exams, I can't wait. It feels like I'm trying to grow up quickly, the way I'm moving out to campus this summer when I go to university. But in saying that, it feels like everything will be alright and this is the best step. I cannot wait to look after myself more. I cannot wait to start this new job and earn money so that I can treat my sisters and bro and boyfriend and friends. I cannot wait til I have money to start driving. I cannot wait to start studying to be what I want to be.
I know this isn't poetry, or like anything else you'll find on this account. But when things are all working out, it's nice to share it =]
There'll be more poetry on here soon, promise x